Friday, January 11, 2008

I'm Back for Today

I knew it would happen. As soon as my 4 week break was over with last summer and I headed back to work, I stopped writing. My job keeps me very busy, as does my family. My energy is usually zapped by the end of each day.

I have a love/hate relationship with my job. I love working with children, but I hate the politics involved on the administrative side. Yes, even within a church, office/business politics invade the work place. My job is part-time, but my husband calls it the most full-time part-time job he has ever seen. However, my work place is very family friendly, and it provides a way for me to minister to others. This is a major plus!

Unbeknownst to all but my family and my assistant, I am getting ready to announce my resignation from one of my positions at work. I keep wondering if I'm doing the right thing. I have always felt that the Lord gave me this position two years ago in order to grow me. Although, from the beginning, I have felt like Moses and have continually begged, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it." (Exodus 4:13) I believe the Lord responded to this request by sending me my own personal Aaron, a.k.a., my assistant. However, I think "Aaron" and I are up against a whole slew of Pharaohs at this church, and I have grown very weary. I feel as if I've "done my time" and am longing to quit and pursue other ventures, not to mention have more time with my family. I know my husband and children would like to see me return to only teaching three mornings a week. On the one hand, I feel the need to obey my husband as the Lord directs wives to do. On the other hand, am I moving in His will and His timing or my own? I don't want my free will to get in the way of His plans for me. I also have this nagging feeling that I'm supposed to bring about some kind of change for the better at this church.

My friends in Christ, please pray for me as you can see that I am somewhat conflicted here. Many blessings to you all, and I hope to return soon!

But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go....?" And God said, "I will be with you." Exodus 3:11,12

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